“A lot goes on in our heads that is quite worthless”

One of the great paradoxes of the spiritual life is that our struggles are not separate from the luminous vastness within each of us. We don’t get rid of struggle to discover this open space; nor does its discovery necessarily rid us of our struggles. The riddle of the obstacle is solved not by pushing it away or by holding on to it, but by meeting it with silence and by discovering in this meeting that sacred ground, which upholds both joy and sorrow, both struggle and freedom from struggle. When we realize this we will struggle less with our struggles and we will have solved by our own silence the riddles that guard the doorway into the silent land.

Most of us live much of our lives caught in the whirlwind of the stories going on in our heads. As our contemplative practice matures we are presented with opportunities to drop the story and to look straight into these thoughts and feelings that lead many of us around by a nose ring. And we see they are without substance. Without the story, they have no power. This insight is behind Mark Twain’s famous line. “I’m an old man now and have had a great many problems. Most of them never happened.” A lot goes on in our heads that is quite worthless. The silent mind knows that what sees the fear, the pain, the inner chaos, is free of the fear, pain, or chaos. But for the noisy mind it all becomes a huge problem.

Contemplation is the way out of the great self-centered psychodrama. When interior silence is discovered, compassion flows. If we deepen our inner silence, our compassion for others is deepened. We cannot pass through the doorways of silence without becoming part of God’s embrace of all humanity in its suffering and joy.

Silence is living, dynamic, and liberating. The practice of silence nourishes vigilance, self-knowledge, letting go, and the compassionate embrace of all whom we would otherwise be quick to condemn. Gradually we realize that whatever it is in us that sees the mind games we play is itself free of all such mind games and is utterly silent, pure, vast, and free. When we realize we are the awareness and not the drama unfolding in our awareness our lives are freer, simpler, more compassionate. Fear remains frightening but we are not afraid of fear. Pain still hurts, but we are not hurt by pain.

Fr Martin Laird

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2 Responses to “A lot goes on in our heads that is quite worthless”

  1. Terry Finley says:

    Great article


  2. Matt says:

    Thank you for posting this. I was at work this morning feeling very disquieted in my spirit because of some issues in my personal life when I felt a strange inner nudge to go online. I’ve been practicing listening prayer lately, which is to say that I’ve been yielding to those “inner nudges” more often, and so I opened my browser hoping God would tell me where to go. Without really thinking about it, my fingers just typed in the address for your blog. As it would turn out, this post was exactly what I need. It almost feels like it was written specifically to help with what I’m going through. I know this is no earthshaking story, but I hope it is of encouragement to you! God bless!


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